Wednesday, October 28, 2009 . 8:22:00 PM
every-fucking-body makes mistakes. damn it.why the hell am i feeling so screwed up now man?? it's like i can't make out heads or tails of the life i'm living anymore. maybe i'm not even living a life now. it's just like, so muddled, so mixed-up.
and today i found out about strong people. not those physically strong people who like to brag 'bout their muscles and stuff, but those kind of dang emotionally and mentally strong kind. i want to be strong. i'm not a coward, or at least that's what i like to tell myself. but seriously, who the hell am i kidding?? but maybe i don't want to be strong anymore. maybe i just want people around me whom i can depend on. but i guess all this shitfuck boils down to myself, being such an asstard and stuff.
sometimes i think i'm a freaking schizo. maybe it'll be better. at least they're never lonely.
p.s. constance, if you're reading this, i'm sorry. didn't mean to lie. but well, i'm just another run-of-the-mill bastard. sorry
if only life was like a tv show.